Happy Ramadhan!

Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa!

1st Ramadhan as a Wife

This Ramadhan will be my 1st Ramadhan as a wife! Huhu tapi sedih tak dpt nak tunaikan tanggungjawab seorg isteri mcm masak sahur dan masak utk berbuka utk dia. Tak dpt jugak nak bersahur dan berbuka sama-sama everyday. Sedih sedih~

But the good thing is dpt berbuka sama-sama on 1st day of Ramadhan! Walaupun maybe dlm kereta jer nanti. Haha flight from MYY to KUL pukul 4.10pm and sampai dlm pukul 6.30pm. Tak sempat kan nak berbuka kat rumah? Huhu takpe lah asalkan berbuka sama-sama kan? :P

Oh kenape dpt berbuka sama-sama? I have meeting on Thursday and Friday!! Haha so boleh balek Rabu ptg. Yeay!

I gained weight!

I weighed 64kg on my wedding day. Yes the result of my diet. I know 64kg is not that ringan lah. But considering my height, 158cm 64kg is my IDEAL weight ok. My BMI was 22-23 like that. I used to be fat during uni life. Just before I started working, during medical check-up, I weighed almost 70kg ok! That was after I lost 4kg. Imagine how fat I am in UTP?

I tried to maintain that 64kg. But after the wedding, I guess I was just trying to enjoy as much as I can. Hahaha I eat and eat and eat! Because I know once I'm back in Miri, the diet routine will start again. But as people said, gaining weight is so much easier than losing it right? So soon after the marriage leave was over, I gained 1.5kg. Yeahhh not much but it's not easy to lose back the 1.5kg! Until now, I'm afraid to know my current weight. Hahaha later when I'm feeling ringan boleh terbang baru nak pegi timbang balek. Oh maybe after puasa. Haha I hope I can get back to 64kg in 1 month.

I don't want to be so skinny. Later I'll look like tengkorak. Haha

Weekend in Miri

Supposedly aku balek this week. Huhu tapi tak! So this means 2 kali weekend tak jumpe. But no worries, I'm going home next week! Mesti lah tak sabar nak balek. Nak jumpe suami. Wahaha tak boleh blah la nak ckp suami :P

I just read Nawi's wife's blog. She mentioned about this whole long distance thing that others would never understand unless they are in the same situation like us. I guess it's still ok for me. It must be harder for her because well, she's pregnant! I always think about this pregnant thing. With the distance between us, I don't know if I could be alone here in Miri, going through a pregnancy without him besides me. There's just too much "what if" in my mind. What if I get morning sickness? What if I want to eat anything in the middle of the night? What if what if what if? The list goes on and on and on!

I had this dream where I have a baby girl. We are watching some sports when suddenly she cries, nak susu! Haha just a few days before, he told me he had a dream that we have a baby boy. Haha sangat tak jive mimpi kitorg. Tah lah, tell me which married couple do not want children? Children? Haha ok child dulu lah. Satu-satu ok? :P

Right now, I just miss him so much. But hey, next time please pujuk ok bila org merajuk? And try harder! Haha I might be emotionally unstable more than once in a week (haha) but please bear with me. I'm alone without you here, remember?

Distance Sucks

I've been here a day and I can already say I miss you
I've been here a day and I can already say that I'm lost without you
I've been here a day and I can already say I need you

Cause life sucks without you
I don't know if I can make it through this year

Will you remember me cause I know I won't forget you?
Will you remember me cause I know I'm thinking about you?
Will you remember me cause I know I'll remember you?

This distance is terrible
I can't stand shedding all these tears

When will I see you again cause I hate not seeing your face?
When will I see you again cause I hate
my life without you?
When will I see you again cause I hate not being with you?

These phone calls are great, but
What's a voice without a face?

Life sucks without you
I don't know if I can make it through this
Distance is terrible
I can't stand shedding all these
Phone calls are great,
But what's a voice without a face?

1 more day left!

Yeay see you tomorrow syg!

Weekend Wife

Not really a weekend wife, sbb 2 weeks skali baru balek. I mean selang seminggu. Huhu dulu org kate rindu lepas kawen x same ngan rindu mase bercinta. Tapi takmo caye. Haha skang nih dah rase. Totally different!! I miss him every second.

I might not tell u this very often, but I do miss u, really. Sometimes I couldn't sleep thinking that u're not here with me. Let's just pray that our rezeki to live together will come. Yes, the time will come, dear. We just have to be patient :)

Sleep tight my dear. In a few days, I'll be home to u. Can't wait!